Friday, August 6, 2004



Peggy didn't know who I was today. It's all right though because I still know who she is.

I hung up the phone and as hard as I tried not too.. I started to cry. 

I try not to go there but I thought of the day in the near future when she will die. In many way's...she has already died.

Peggy really began to die to me when she forgot who I was and when she began talking to me like I was a stranger. In many way's...she is already in heaven. Far out of reach to all who love her.

I wonder if she will know who I am when I get to Heaven and see her again?

Saying  good-bye to someone who is still alive is difficult?  I do it every day in inches and hold on to the fact that one day, when we meet in heaven...She will remember who I am. She will see me and say, Hi, Mary Louise. We will look at one another, point our fingers at each other's faces and laugh as we say....


 The song, Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton expresses what I would like to say to Peggy today.

TEARS IN HEAVEN by Eric Clapton and Will Jennings

Would you know my name if I saw you in heaven?

Would it be the same if I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong and carry on, 'cause I know I don't belong here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand... if I saw you in heaven?

Would you help me stand...if I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way... through night and day, 'cause I know...I just can't stay here in heaven.

Time can bring you down, Time can bend your knees.

Time can break your heart, Have you begging...Please, begging Please....

Beyond the door, There's Peace.... I'm sure, and I know there'll be no more....

Tears in Heaven.

I'll see you in Heaven one day, Sister!

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Mary Louise



barbpinion said...

I love that song of Eric's. I'm sure Peggy will know you in heaven. Count on seeing her and having her face light up when she sees you. Hugs,  my friend. *Barb*

cw2smom said...

I am so sorry for what you are going thru with your sister.  I understand.  The past two days with my Papa have been similar for me, but his confusion is all due to the drugs they're giving him during his hospitalization.  I know he won't be with me much longer either. I love this Eric Clapton song.  Thanks for this entry.  Lisa @ Wearin' My Heart and Up Close and Personal

rrveh1 said...

Thanks for sharing your heartsong-This is very Beautiful!!!