When a family member is dying, the effects of that process reach all of the people who love them. The death of a loved one is like a boulder that is thrown into the middle of a lake.
When the boulder drops below the surface, the rippling circles of waves start at the drop point and travel to all parts of the lake. The ripples can only stop when the waves reach the shore.
This is what Peggys dying from Alzheimer's disease is doing to our family. The ripples are circling out and touching many lives.
I am not the only person hurting as we all watch Peggy disappear. The whole family is in grief, as are her friends and all of the people her life has touched.
Alzheimer's disease is the lake and Peggy is the boulder that has been dropped into the middle of it. As she sinks below the surface, the ripples from her disappearance are touching all of our lives in different ways.
My husband and I were talking the other evening about Peggy. He had read my journal entry for that day and his comment was, You know, I miss Peggy too!
John became a part of our family when Peggy was in the 9th grade and he has been apart of her life since that time.
I get so caught up in my own grief over losing Peggy that I forget how much others are hurting. They have not made their grief as public as I have.
So, to my husband, John, to my children, Melissa, Sheri, Ross, Mike, Scott and Mickey, to my sisters, Betty Jean and Barbara, to my brother, Johnny and to all of my cousins, especially Jimmy and to all of my friends. Thank You!
I send a special love to Ricky, Melodie and Brooke. And to Darlene and Jim...You are all special people who are affected every day as Peggy disappears from your lives.
I also want to thank Ricky for giving me the permission to write this journal.
Thank you for your support in my effort to explain what it is like for me to watch Peggy disappear a little more every day.
To everyone who reads this journal and offers their support, Thank You!
Writing this journal has been a labor of love and personal therapy. It is also the most difficult work that I have ever attempted.
I think that Peggy would be proud of me for trying to explain what I think is happening to her as she continues her journey ....
To disappear from all of our lives.
I Love YouToday, Peggy!