Thursday, September 24, 2009

PEGGY CONTINUES TO DISAPPEAR

I got this new picture of Peggy yesterday, I couldn't believe that this old tiny person
is my youngest sister. Alzheimer;s disease has taken her mind and now, her beautiful body. One thing that the disease will never take away is her wonderful smile. She does laugh and smile a lot.
I guess Peggy has another few months on this earth. At least....she smiles, walks and is generally happy but she is beginning to forget how to chew and swallow so time is counting down for her.
I have cried all day and even experienced a panic attack when this image got into my head.
The only thing that I could still see through my tears as they fall and I write this entry...... is
Two sisters running barefooted through our neighborhood in Birmingham, Alabama. Climbing trees, roller skating, riding bikes, making clover chains, walking to Joe's store with a nickle each to buy a devils food cake or a grape Popsicle. I remember first dates, last dates and crying in the front bedroom when we were hurt by a boyfriend.
PJ and I shared so much of our selves with one another all through our lives. Alzheimer's came and stayed in her mind and has erased all of her memories but....I still remember, Peggy.
Seeing this photo of you made me aware that you will be leaving us soon. Far to early. You missed so much of your 40s,50s and just turned 60.
I will never forget this picture of you, Peggy!!! Not because you look bad but because You look tired and ready to leave. I know you want to go because you flashed me your beautiful smile in the picture.
I am heart broken tonight and the tears block my view of the keys,
PJ, When you die, will you do me a favor?
Find Mother and Daddy and tell them I am doing OK but sure miss them.
Just like I am missing you.
Thank goodness that we had such fun growing up as "THE ROSS GIRLS"
Thank Mama And Daddy for that when you see them and give them My biggest bear hug!
You know the bear hug PJ...The one you hated to get from me! Ha Also tell Daddy that his little Porky Pig is wishing she could hand him one more tool as he worked on cars in the back yard!
Take care of them, Peggy and I know they are excited that their baby girl is coming home to them
I Love You Today, Peggy!
Mary Louise