Thursday, May 31, 2007



                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   I looked at a picture of Peggy and me when we were children and it seemed like yesterday.

I thought of how long ago that picture was made and thought.....

Yesterday and Forever are worlds apart but close.

I remember the first time thatI heard the word Alzheimer's Disease connected to Peggy  like it was yesterday but it was forever ago.

I remember talking to her on the phone, laughing and talking about an upcoming sister's trip as if it was yesterday but it was forever ago.

Our minds are powerful enough for us remember yesterday like it was really yesterday.

Two words...

So close and so far away in meaning.

Yesterday was a day ago, a year ago or many years ago.

Peggy is gone to me today but I have the the yesterdays. I wonder what it would be like to have neither???

I Love You Today, Peggy!  See you tomorrow, when today becomes.....


Mary Louise


Thursday, May 17, 2007

I WISH.....

I received some new pictures of Peggy yesterday. Her husband is always good about sending them to me.

I am glad to get them but they always make me cry. Not because she looks awful but because I miss her so much.

I see the picture of my sister and know that she doesn't remember who I am.

She is still beautiful in a vacant kind of way. Her smile is still big and bright but the essence of who she was..... is gone.

I am thankful that she isn't in any kind of pain, physically or mentally.

I wish that I had a magic wand to wave over her head.

I wish that I was a brilliant researcher who discovered a cure today.

I wish that I could restore the smile in her eyes.

I wish that I could....But I can't!

Peggy just is.........    And.......

I miss my sister.

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Mary Louise

Saturday, May 12, 2007






Wednesday, May 9, 2007


I have been quiet for awhile in my writing.

It is not that I don't have a lot of words and feelings wandering around in my mind. Words and feelings concerning Peggy.

No words are making it to my fingers at this time.

These times come.

These times go.

I know that I will be able to write my feelings again.

Right now, they are resting.

Sometimes, I have so much to say that I am unable to talk.

I Love You Today, Peggy! 

 I know that you never would have imagined that I could be quiet!

Mary Louise

In quietness and your strength  Isaiah 30:15