Saturday, January 12, 2008

Missing Peggy

There is a lot going on in my world, Peggy.

How I wish that I could talk with you!

I wonder what is going on in the world you live in and

if you wish you could talk with me.

I miss you tonight.

I miss being able to talk life over with you.

I am very thankful for the old times but.....

We should have had "right now" too!

I send my prayers to surround you tonight.

I feel your prayers around me as I write.

I Love You Today, Peggy!

I miss you and your wisdom.     

Mary Louise

Saturday, January 5, 2008

MY TEACHER...MY SISTER

THE NEW YEAR OF 2008.

ANOTHER YEAR OF DEALING WITH THE DISAPPEARANCE OF PEGGY.

ANOTHER YEAR OF TRYING TO MAKE SOME SENSE OF IT.

ANOTHER YEAR OF WATCHING HER DISAPPEAR.

ALL IS NEVER LOST OR FOR NOTHING..

MY, OH MY, WHAT I HAVE LEARNED ABOUT MYSELF AS PEGGY CONTINUES HER LONG JOURNEY.

I HAVE STUBBORNLY HELD ON TO THE OLD PEGGY, NOT WANTING HER TO GO.

I HAVE PRAYED, CRIED AND REMEMBERED BUT SO FAR HER JOURNEY INTO ALZHEIMER'S DISEASE CONTINUES.

SOMETIMES, WHAT WE WANT, IS NOT WHAT IS THE BEST FOR US.

BECAUSE OF PEGGY'S JOURNEY, I AM A BETTER PERSON.

I HAVE LEARNED THAT HOLDING ON IS NOT ALWAYS THE KIND OR HEALTHY THING TO DO.

I WILL KEEP HER CLOSE WITH OPEN HANDS NOW.

PEGGY'S JOURNEY AND MINE WILL CONTINUE IN 2008.

WHAT WILL I LEARN THIS NEW YEAR BECAUSE PEGGY CONTINUES TO DISAPPEAR?

I HOPE THAT I WILL LEARN THAT I AM NOT IN CONTROL...... NEVER HAVE BEEN AND NEVER WILL BE........I WILL LEARN TO LET GO. WHEN I HANG ON, I CANNOT GROW.

I AM HERE TO LEARN, CHANGE AND GROW IN WAYS THAT I NEVER THOUGHT POSSIBLE.

 AND PEGGY WILL CONTINUE TO BE MY TEACHER.

 

I LOVE YOU TODAY, PEGGY!

I MISS YOU.

MARY LOUISE