Alzheimer's disease has decided that Peggy's memories are junk. It has stacked a life time of her memories in a corner and they are collecting dust.
She can no longer recall birth's or death's, happy times or sad times.
She just sits and waits.....
Her husband has looked into facilities for Alzheimer's patients but said he cannot put her in any of the places that he has visited. The reason....all of the people in the facilities are elderly people in their 70's, 80's and 90's. No one, as young as Peggy is there.
He will have to make that decision one day soon but for now...He will keep her at home and safe.
I will be going to see Peggy next week and I must admit that I am scared.
Scared of seeing the Peggy that I knew gone...in person.
Scared of not being remembered... in person.
Scared of watching her disappear... in person
Scared of what I will feel when I see her.
Scared because I know that I can do nothing to help her.
This will be an important journey for me. I need to say good-bye to her and can only do that face to face.
I need to say good-bye even if the face that I am saying good-bye to...doesn't remember who I am.
This might be my last chance to hug her and tell her that................. I Love Her Today......In Person.
This will be my journey to look Alzheimer's disease in the face...in person and see what it has done to my beautiful, younger sister.
Peggy may not remember me next Monday but I have a video tape running in my head of the Peggy that I have known since the day she was born.
I Love You Today, Peggy and I will see you....in person next Monday!
I wish, with all that I am that we could have one hour... just 60 minutes to be just like we were before Alzheimer's disease entered her mind and destroyed all of her memories.... Just one hour...Just 60 minutes
A proper Good-bye.
I Love You Today, Peggy!