Thursday, December 4, 2003

I'm Adjusting My Sails!

I called Peggy this morning and it was clear that she had No idea who she was talking too. It was a short exchange of words and I hung up and just held the phone for awhile to get my composure.

I thought of something that my Daddy said to me years ago. We have always referred to his words of wisdom as "DADDYISMS".

He said; MaryLouise, You can't control the wind... SO,You will have to Adjust your Sails!

I know that phrase has been said before but those words coming from My Daddy made them sink into my heart that day.

I have been Adjusting my sails today as I thought of Peggy and our different phone conservations of the past two years. I have observed her deterioration with every call.

I cannot change what is happening to her.... I have tried!

So, it's time for me to adjust and accept the way she is and will be in the future.

I cannot control this event in my life but I am trying to control my reactions to it.

It is no easy task but there is some comfort even in discomfort.

I say that because Peggy doesn't KNOW that she doesn't KNOW!

That is a comfort to me.

H. G. Wells said; "The past is but the beginning of a beginning".

Peggy Began her journey home Two Years ago and I will walk with her every step of the way!

I love you today, Peggy!

MaryLouise

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

That really should be a comfort to you that she doesn't know she doesn't know! Small comfort that it may be...you ned to take them when you can find them:)

Anonymous said...

I walked with my lil sis every step of the way also.
Debbie