I read a saying once that said...
SINCE THE HOUSE IS ON FIRE...WE MIGHT AS WELL WARM OURSELVES!!!!!
That is how I feel about Peggy having Alzheimer's disease. She has it and I can't change it so I might as well warm myself on the LIGHT of Peggy that is still visible.
Yesterday and today's calls were different. She was trying hard to communicate with me but couldn't.
She said; I wonder..
What do you wonder??? I said.
Her reply was....I can't remember
Hearing Peggy struggle to remember is hard but she keeps trying and that is a trait that I have always admired in her.
Watching Peggy disappear from Alzheimer's disease is like watching a menacing storm approach. There is a bank of black clouds that resemble dark mountains in the distance. The darkness moves ever closer and continues to cover the blue and grey light of the sky.
Alzheimer's disease is that dark cloud...... it is covering the sun in Peggy's mind. There is the rumble of thunder in the distance and it is promising a storm. A very destructive storm that will make the day look like night. Peggy was always afraid when it stormed but now, as her storm nears... she is very calm.
Her mind was as bright as the sun on a summer day. Now, darkness is sliding over her brain and covering her light.
I can still see the presence of Peggy shining around the darkness of the clouds. She is still shining to the best of her ability and that makes me smile.
I know that Alzheimer's will never give up until it's dark storm clouds have completely covered the light...
That was Peggy.
Photo by Burnt Canvas
I Love You Today, Peggy