Wednesday, February 4, 2004

Needing New Strength!

I talked to Peggy this morning. I haven't been able to reach her since last Friday.

I didn't feel like writing yesterday and nothing much to say today.

 I'm just in a blue period, when it comes to Peggy and missing the connection that we shared.

This morning's call was hard because she just repeated what I said to her.  

Most calls, it doesn't bother me but did.

It is times like this when I  feel used up emotionally and don't have much energy to do the work to communciate with her.

She is still the same sweet person on the phone. It's me...

 I don't want to expose myself to the daily calls that upset me when I am struggling with issues of my own.

I just want her to wake up and be the Peggy that I knew and not this stranger that sounds like Peggy.

Now, I'm feeling sorry for myself but I think that it is allowed on blue days and this has been a Blue Day!

Take care tonight, Peggy.

I will call you tomorrow morning as alway's.  We are Sisters and we Made the

LOVE YOU-MEAN IT promise when we were small.

I miss you so much!  I will feel better tomorrow.         Because.......

The Lord is my Shepard, I have everything I need!

He lets me rest in meadow grass and leads me beside the quiet streams.

He Gives Me New Strength.       Psalm 23:1-3

I love you today, Peggy!

Mary Louise




skyblondegilbert said...

This is the only entry I have read in your journal but I just had to let you know how sorry I am for your sadness and loss. Im a 32 yr old widow who lost the most perfect christian husband to CA in 2000. The sadness doesn't go away, it changes it's colors-but it's still only a burden Christ can relieve. My heart aches for you. Please do not stop reaching for the Lord-I believe he allows these things b/c he wants us so close to Him! In Christ's Love, Jami

darkangelg2181 said...

This is my first visit to your journal which I found through Nikki.. I must say that this is very touching and at the same time hard to read because I lost my younger brother just 3 years ago to an avoidable accident. He was 14 at the time and everyday is a challenge to get through especially when everything I see and do reminds me of him. I feel for you and pray for the best for both you and your sister. May God be with you and your family-Gina

carolhehe said...

Mary Louise, Blue can also mean Love, devotion and harmony. You are truly blue for your sister. And very well deserved.
Carol Jeanne

eveningmors said...

My Aunt has the same disease. I miss her also.

eveningmors said...

My Aunt has the same disease. I miss her also.