I think that Alzheimer's Disease has four definite Seasons.
Spring, Summer, Fall and Winter.
Springtime, where there is forgetting but not very unusual, so it is dismissed.
Then Summer of Alzheimer's arrives. This is a season when the forgetting gets worse and there is fear because the person knows that something is wrong but batteries of tests show nothing... Seizures can occure along with other physical symptoms. Attention tends to stray. Simple calculations become impossible and ordinary daily activities grow increasingly difficult.
Then Fall comes to the brain. It is a season of mood swings. Out bursts of anger, bouts of fearfulness and periods of lack of emotion, indifference and listlessness. I think this is the season that Peggy is experiencing.
Then, the Winter of Alzheimer's Disease comes and the person tends to get increasingly disoriented and may wander off and become lost. Physical problems, such as an odd gait or loss of coordination, gradually develop. In this Winter Season, the person may become unable to communicate, physically helpless and incontinent. Then... We, who love, wait for the "Winter of The Mind" to take Peggy away in it's icy grip.
It is snowing outside as I write. The snow is beautiful as it covers all the brown, deadness of winter. It rains down and coats the landscape beautifully in a fluffy, white blanket.
Peggy has been enduring the seasons of Alzheimer's.. The winter of her mind is coming! Alzheimer's is raining down a cold snow on her brain. Would, that I had the power to go inside her head with snow shovels and salt. Then, I could melt the winter snow from her mind. Sad... that I am not that powerful on this winter day. I have to watch her disappear in a massive snow drift and there is nothing that I can do to melt the winter from her mind. She is moving through the seasons with frightful speed.
Winter is coming and none of us are ready for the snow fall that will take her away. All we can do is stand close to her and try to keep her warm as she disappears in the deep snows of Alzheimer's.
I love you today, Peggy! Mary Louise