I am writing with a heavy heart today.
Peggy is in a nursing facility and is being accessed as I write in this journal.
It seemed strange today not calling her and hearing her voice.
I pray that all goes smoothly and she will like the facility.
Please pray for her husband and children. This was a difficult decision for her husband but I believe it was the right one for Peggy.
I have talked to two of my sister's and my husband this morning and we are all feeling sad as we watch her enter this last stage of the disease.
On the flip side of our sadness...we know that this was the best move for Peggy and done at the right time.
Our prayer is that Peggy's husband can walk out of the nursing home without hearing Peggy call for him or hear her crying.
If that happens...It will be a very long walk for him.
Keep Peggy and Rick in your prayers.
I will continue to write my feelings about watching my sister...disappear.
It is the only thing that I can do with the sadness and frustration that I continue to feel. I have watched what this disease has done to my sister, her family and their friends.
I have watched what it has done to my family and my friends.
Alzheimer's disease does a vicious, heartless thing to the families of it's victims...
It placed our family in front row seats and commanded us to watch as Peggy continues to disappear before our eyes. Alzheimer's disease makes sure that we watch as it drags the disappearance out over a period of many years.
Peggy is always on my mind but today...She is where she needs to be at this point of her disease. I know that in my heart.
She will have 24 hour care from this point on and that will be good for her as she continues her journey of disappearance from this world.
My task today is to keep the...I, I, I and the Me, Me, Me out of this day. I do know that a lot of my sadness is that I will not be able to hear her voice on a daily basis.
That is where I will need to work on my feelings because this day is not about me or my sadness....
This day is about Peggy and what is best for her.
I Love You Today, Peggy!