I talked with Peggy's sitter for a while this morning. She said, I don't want to hurt your feelings but I don't think Peggy knew who you were yesterday. I reassured her that I understood that and for her not to worry.
When Peggy came to the phone, she was quiet, like yesterday. She used one word answers to most of my questions.
Then, she surprised me...
I said, is anyone visiting today? She replied, Yes. I asked who was going to visit and she said Mary Louise! I said, she is??? When is she coming? Peggy replied, she is here now. Great, I said. Will you give her a big hug for me? Peggy said, yes.
To lighten my mood and to keep from crying, I asked ...Well, How is M. L. looking these days? Peggy's answer was... She looks real good and is happy! I said; I hope ya'll have a good time together Peggy. We will, she said. You know, Good times, even as a ghost with Peggy are treasured.
She does remember me on some level! What a wonderful gift today!
It makes me happy and sad at the same time because.....
If she thought that I was there with her...She had no idea who she was talking too!
It hurts to think that someone you love doesn't remember who you are. But it is healing to think Peggy does remember a ghost of me.
I don't mind being a ghost to Peggy. Even if she doesn't know who I am today...she still has a faint memory of me from our past.
She knows that I love her enough to visit with her and that's all that really matters to me today.
Love... comes out of heaven, unasked and unsought. Pearl S. Buck
Peggy gave me a gift today. The gift of being remembered.
I Love You Today, Peggy!