I could not write yesterday...There were No words to express what I was feeling. I didn't know if there would be words today when I sat down to type but they just came pouring out.
When I heard you talk today, Peggy... I didn't hear you...I only heard the echoes of our Past.
Our Past.... with No Future.
No, Hello's in our future, no talks, no Sister's Weeks, no shared feelings, no Sister secrets on the phone. All I have as I write today is.... our past. Alzheimer's has made sure of that. We only have "What Was" and not "What Will Be."
Alzheimer's has taken away the joy's and expressions of our future...as Sister's.
I treasure all of the Echoes that we have shared.
I am thankful that we have so many wonderful Echoes for me to recall.
I will carry those echoes of laughter, secret talks, shared dreams, hurts, plans, joy's and the sister love that we had for one another into my future.
I will Remember the "You" that helped make "Me" who I am, as I write today.
I just wish that there was some way for me to let you know, at this stage of your disease, how much I love you and how sad that I am knowing that this is where it all ends. Alzheimer's has decided that being Sister's and sharing is not important.
I will continue to try and let you know what a special person that I think you are.
I will continue to call you even though it rips my heart out on some day's because there are still those day's when you make me laugh and I can hear, in your voice....
The Echos Of Our Past!