When I called Peggy this morning the sitter said that when she heard the phone ring she broke into the biggest smile!
That's all that I needed!
What I experienced yesterday was the Mary Louise April Pity Party.
Of course, I could never give up and not call Peggy.
Sometimes, I just need to step back and...BREATHE!
When I let myself think that there will be no more Sister's Weeks where Peggy is there and no more talks about what is going on in our lives..I start to feel very sorry for myself.
I miss our connection so much that I get angry and want to stop being reminded every day that we will never have that again.
She still needs me on some level...I can feel it and even though it hurts to be reminded every day that she is disappearing, I can still hear her voice and her laughter.
I have to remind myself that I am the well one here.
I am the one who can give and not receive.
This is what Sister's do and what I will continue to do.
It does hurt to know that she probably doesn't put my face to my voice any longer.
I pray every day that God will give me the wisdom to be who and what I need to be for Peggy, My Forever Friend.
Peggy, I miss you so much and you can count on my call tomorrow morning.
Just like always!
Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of trouble, attempts what is above its strength,and pleads........ No excuse of impossibility. Thomas a. Kempis
I Love You Today, Peggy!