Thursday, November 10, 2005


Most day's, I do pretty well as I continue to watch Peggy disappear from my life.

But then, there are days like today when I would give anything to pick up the phone, call her and tell her what has been going on in my life this week.

She would be very happy about the ViVi award but there is no way that I can share that news with her.

I wonder if she is lonely or sad and wishes that she could share her thoughts with me.

Alzheimer's disease is a vicious malady.

Alzheimer's hasn't only affected Peggy, it has affected our whole family.

Peggy is still alive but she is dead.

She has a mind but she cannot think like she did.

She has a mouth but she cannot talk about her day.

She cannot give and she cannot receive.

Peggy, just is....And I miss her so much!

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Mary Louise




barbpinion said...

I am so sorry you're missing out on so much with Peggy. I know she would be so proud of you for winning the VIVI award; but more than that, she'd be proud of the person you are.
Hugs, and always my love & prayers

wendy4145 said...

There will be a special time for you to share the VIVI award with Peggy.  Afterall, You two earned it together!
The VIVI award and your journal just wouldn't BE with out BOTH PEGGY and MARY LOUISE.  You share this award now, and you will rejoice in that together, later.  I suppose the good things are always worth their wait.

God Bless you and peggy and the whole family.

sazzylilsmartazz said...

A belated congratulations on the VIVI award.
This entry made me feel so sad. I'm glad you are there for your sister.

"She cannot give and she cannot receive."

Peggy is receiving your thoughts and your love. I feel somewhere, deep inside her, she knows that.

Very best wishes,


terra19728 said...

Wow that is so heartbreaking.  My sis and I are so close, I can't imagine the pain you must feel.  I am sorry seems so stupid to say, but really I am sorry.  I feel helpless to do anything but I will pray and I will be back to offer any kind of support that I can.

Thank you for stopping by my journal and saying hi it really means a lot.