Yesterday, I was working on an entry for this journal.
I had written all of my emotions about watching Peggy disappear when all of a sudden, the screen went blank and my desk top appeared.
I sat there and stared at the blank screen. There was no way to retrieve everything that I had written. No way to retieve the emotion as I wrote those words. They were gone...
Then, a screen appeared that said; Your connection to AOl has been lost.
All of a sudden...my connection was lost and my words disappeared. Just like Peggy, I thought.
Then, another screen popped up and said...FIX IT FOR ME.
I clicked on the fix it for me button and my connection was restored and AOl was up and running again.
I went back to my journal and faced a blank screen that once contained all the words that I had typed about Peggy.
I had to start all over again trying to recall what I had written. The words would not come and the thoughts that had been recorded minutes before were lost.
The blank screen is Peggy and our connection has been lost. There is no screen that will pop up in our lives that says....
Fix it for me.
My connection to Peggy has been lost forever and no one can repair the damage.
Wouldn't it be wonderful if there were a button that we could push that had these words written on it.
Fix it for me!
I could push the "fix it for me" button....
And Peggy would appear back in my life, just the way she was before her screen went blank.
I Love You Today, Peggy!