I talked with Peggy this morning and her voice was flat and cold.
I could not connect with her on any level. She is getting worse every day and there is no way to reach her.
I was reading in the paper this morning about the avalanche in Utah and thought that my call to her was a lot like an avalanche.
Her mind has been covered in a great slide of freezing cold snow and she has no way of digging herself out.
Doctors, medications and care have not helped to locate the Peggy that is buried under the mountain of snow inside of her mind.
Her mind is stilled by the weight of Alzheimer's snow. Alzheimer's disease slid into her mind and crushed all of her thoughts and her memories.
The weight and freezing temperature of the snow has frozen Peggy in time and she will stay frozen until she is rescued and thawed out in death.
On this very cold day in Ohio, I made the call to my sister and thought of the warm, happy Peggy that I knew and remembered.
After my call to her, I was faced with the frozen person that she has become because of Alzheimer's disease.
I Love You Today, Peggy!