Wednesday, June 28, 2006

DARK CLOUDS

My grief over watching Peggy disappear does not constantly cloud my everyday life.

My life is filled with many sunny days.

But every day or so a little black cloud will move over the sun of my day and block out the sunshine. Those are the times when I think of how much I miss having Peggy in my life. When I remember, the thoughts of her block my sun.

Then, the cloud moves away and the sun shines again in my day.

To stay under the cloud of grief would be too much.

There will be sunshine and dark clouds in my life.

There will be storms to endure and lightening will streak across my world as long as I live.

That is OK because if it was sunny all of the time...How would I grow as a person?

Peggy and watching her disappear will bring dark clouds and sad times but I refuse to stay seated under the dark clouds.

Some days are sunnier that other days and some days are dark with clouds blocking my view of life.

We cannot stop the storms of life but we can decide how we will react to them.

I will miss Peggy for all of my life !

But I know her and I know that she would come and hit me over the head if I sat in the shadow of a dark cloud every day.....

 Because of her.

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Mary Louise

5 comments:

inafrnz247 said...

Your words expressed here are so very, very true...  thank you for the reminder, that all of it, good and bad, is just part of the grand scheme of things.  Take care, and God Bless!   Michelle

wendy4145 said...

(That is OK because if it was sunny all of the time...How would I grow as a person?)

THis is True Mary Louise.  I'm glad you are choosing how you act about your grief.  I I think don't think one is grown up until they can do that.

Hurting is no fun... but sometimes that is all we can do.  

You are wise to deal with it the open way that you have.  So many blessings come from tragedy.  Sometimes tragedies come from the most wonderful of things.

I pray for God to take away your clouds and bring you lots more peace and sunny days.

Love,
Wendy


sanforized6 said...

Just got caught up on all the entries I've missed. You are something else, Mary Louise.

I work at a Golf Course in a retirement community. I've been here 11 years, and, needless to say, I've watched many of the residents pass. BUT, the saddest thing I've seen is the one's that have Alzheimer's. Believe me, I share your emotions on this 100%, and hope and pray I never have to experience it in my family (knock wood). God bless, rich

thebaabee said...

MaryLouise,
It's been quite a while since I last visited your journal.  I was happy to read, as you wrote, "Mylife is filled with many sunny days."

You and Peggy remain in my thoughts and prayers.

LuAnne
http://journals.aol.com/thebaabee/LUANNESLIFELIVINGWITHLUPUS/

lowis6535 said...

   How about the saying, "If a tree falls in the forest, & no one is there ... does it make a sound?"   If Peggy is  here upon earth, & no one is there ... "Is she really present?".
   Because YOU are there ... she IS HERE.   She is not suffering; you are honoring her memory by honoring her human-ess.

LOIS
http://journals.aol.com/lowis6535/UpperPeninsulaMIandbeyond/