Today, Peggy's voice had the quality of a 5 year old. It was soft and sweet.
Tomorrow, her voice may sound strong with an angry edge.
One thing that I have learned as I watch Peggy disappear is that with Alzheimer's disease, you never know who will be on the other end of the phone line. Peggy may have the voice of a 5 year old or 45 year old in a matter of minutes.
She can have the strength of a 50 year old when she speaks or the shyness of a 3 year old.
She can sound helpless or belligerent, weak or strong from moment to moment.
Alzheimer's disease decides who she is and what age she will be from moment to moment, day to day.
We decide who we are, what age we are and how we will react to any situation if our brains are free from disease.
When a pearson has Alzheimer's disease, the disease decides who you will be and how you will react at any given time.
Alzheimer's disease takes away choices.
This disease makes all of Peggy's choices for her.
I never know who will be on the other end of the phone line when I talk to her and that's OK.
I still know that Peggy is in there somewhere listening to my words.
I really doesn't matter who she is or how old she is when she answers my call. All that matters is that...
She can still come to the phone.
She may not talk.
She may hang up on me.
She may lay the phone down and walk away.
But she always says....Hello.
Hello is a nice word even if its the only word I hear her say.
A simple hello from Peggy carries all the memories of a lifetime.....
I Love You Today!