When someone you love has Alzheimer's disease, it is like looking at them through the window of a locked house. You have no key to the house and can never open the door and walk inside.
You can only see them if you stand on the outside of their house and look through the window.
A major problem with standing on the outside of their window and trying to look inside, is that the window gets more fogged and more dirty with each passing year.
The person you remember becomes more and more distorted as the sooty film continues to cover the window to their soul.
With the passing of time and the build-up of soot and fog on the window of who they were........
It is more difficult for you to see them or for them to see you.
Peggy's window has a build-up of fog that is getting more dense and it is more difficult to see her from this side of her window.
Maybe, with time and research, windows can be cleaned and the people behind the windows will be able to walk to the door, open it wide and let the sun shine into the window of their minds again.
I know that the window of opportunity Peggy and I had ......has been closed and is covered with fog and a gray soot.
One of the things that I deal with as I watch Peggy disappear is that.......
She doesn't see me standing on the outside of her window any longer and even if she did, she wouldn't remember who I am or why I am standing there. She wouldn't recall the connection we had in our lives.
I don't think that Peggy sees a fogged or dirty window as she stares....
Out of the window of her mind
It is only dirty and fogged when I try to look.............
I Love You Today, Peggy!
I miss you!