Thursday, August 30, 2007



I never realized that this goodbye wave.....

 Really meant goodbye!

I wonder if Peggy ever gets lonely.

She is surrounded by care givers and medical staff 24 hours a day where she lives.

But does she get lonely?

Do people who suffer from diseases like Alzheimer's, Pick's and other dementia diseases remember what lonely is or what it feels like?

I know that I have felt lonely in crowds. I was in a city once at the airport and there were thousands of people rushing in every direction. I sat waiting for a plane and looked at the faces of people as they rushed by me and there was not a single face that was familiar. In the thousands of people, I felt completely alone.

Is this what Peggy feels?

Alone and lonely is a terrible place to visit much!

Everyone tells me that Peggy smiles a lot and seems happy in her world.

Maybe, she has forgotten what lonely is and what lonely feels like.

Maybe, she is just happy to be loved and cared for and doesn't spend time connecting with the feeling of lonely.

I really hope that she isn't lonely in her world of Alzheimer's disease. The disease has already taken so much from her...... Maybe, it has done a nice thing in all it has destroyed.

Maybe, it has made her forget....

What lonely feels like.

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Mary Louise



chgodiab said...

i realized that my dad wasnt lonely; until he saw me again. Pts with this do live in the moment and have no clue about the past or future. I also realized that there was something that my dad recognized about me; maybe the way i smelled or my voice, that would make me realize who i was.
I have to say that i was the only one in the end that he knew; for whatever Gods reason was..and never lonely when i was there

wendy4145 said...

I agree that if it takes the good memories, it also takes the bad memories and feelings.

If she's smiling, she must be feeling good during her present. After all, the present is really all any of us HAVE.


ajquinn354 said...

Mary Louise, your Peggy is in a happy place in her world.  She may have some rare moments where if she sees someone she knew before the illness, she'll find warmth and smile at you or reach out to touch your hand, know it would be wonderful if she had those moments always, but her condition doesn't let her have those often.  I worked at a nursing home facility and we had a lot of alzheimer patients and must say most of them were happy with the moment they were living in, hope this comforts you.  Arlene (AJ)

tendernoggle said...

We know not what goes on in their minds...what they may feel or hear or see that they can not comunicate to us...I know my mama still remembers me...right now...but I do not know for how long...I wish they would find a cure for this.
love ya,

rdautumnsage said...

I dont' think Peggy is lonely. She has all the footprints of those who love her imprinted across her heart. Even inside her world those footprints mean something to her, she doesn't remember why, but the feeling remains. (Hugs) Indigo