Sunday, December 18, 2005


One week until Christmas Day.

One week to feel all of the losses of my life during this season of the year.

My parents and in-laws not being here. Peggy not being here.

If I let myself, I could just focus on all of my losses this Christmas. If I did, they would stack up like the snowflakes that are falling outside of my window.

I have made a decision to focus on the people who are still in my life this holiday.

We all have a choice.....

We can remember and be sad or we can remember and feel the joy of past Christmas' while staying connected to the present.

Who knows what next Christmas will bring. Some of the people that will celebrate with you this year, might not be with you next year.

Our minds are powerful. We control how we react to the day and all that 24 hours may bring.

I am striving to bring balance into my daily life.

When I have a sad thought...I find a happy thought to lean against it. That way, I can't fall into the sadness.

That is what I think life is..

A balance of thoughts.

I miss Peggy so much at this time of year but on a positive note...

I have my family, my other sister's and my brother who are with me in the present.

I could spend the holidays crying about the loss of Peggy or in joy because of the people who are still in my life.

I choose to live in the present this Holiday season.

Remembering the past but staying alive to the present.

Because that is what today is to each of us....

A Present!

A present to open and enjoy!

Merry Christmas, Peggy!

I Love You Today!

Mary Louise


psychfun said...

Beautiful entry & thank you for the reminder. Much needed as I have lost 3 loved ones this year.

wendy4145 said...

I am proud of you for CHOOSING to be honest with yourself about your saddness during the joy of christmas... but to also appreciate the JOY you have every day with your loved ones in the present.

so true!  We are presents to eachother.  we are all we've got!  so we must not miss seeing the joy in that.

so true!

Merry Christmas Mary Louise and Peggy!

sanforized6 said...

Great choice! You've shared enough sorrow throughout the year. Now it's your turn to feel a little cheer! rich