Monday, September 19, 2005

STEPPING STONES

I called the nursing home today and they said that Peggy is adjusting and doing just fine.

I didn't get to talk to her but that's OK. I know she is well and being taken care of day and night.

I find that I am slowly letting go of some of the pain of watching her disappear.  There is nothing that I can do to bring her back, so I must move forward.

I read this today...  If we celebrate the years behind us, they become the stepping stones of strength and joy for the years ahead.

These few words explain how I am feeling.

I thought it was interesting that I found those words because Peggy is in a unit at the nursing home that is called...Stepping Stones.

Peggy is my stepping stone to the future because her illness has taught me to live in the moment, to live like there is no tomorrow.

I was cooking this morning and the recipe called for boiling water.

I put the water on to boil and got busy doing other tasks. When I went back to check on the water in the pan...it was gone. It had all boiled away while I was just steps away from the pot. The pot that was full of water was now dry.

How like Peggy, I thought.

We have been steps away for one another all of our lives and yet, she simple boiled away while I wasn't paying attention.

Many people have come and gone in my life. Some have changed me forever making me a better person for knowing them.

Peggy is one of those people.

I turned my head one day and was busy doing other tasks in my life and Peggy simply boiled away and....

Disappeared.

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Mary Louise

 

7 comments:

sanforized6 said...

Beautiful, as always!! rich

barbpinion said...

Your writings have touched my heart so much, as well they should have. I know they touched other's life too. "Stepping Stones." Appropriate name and that is truly what our trials are; stepping stones into the future. Please know you are in my prayers.
God bless you
Barb- http://journals.aol.com/barbpinion/HEYLETSTALK

wendy4145 said...

i am glad that you aren't looking to find your pain when ever it eases for a moment.

you turn your head and your pain is less some moments and that is good.

some people can't let that be.  

Love,

Wendy



aniracj said...

Hi, Tammy directed me here; I know what you are going through - my Father had Alzheimers...it is so cruel. My thoughts are with you.
http://journals.aol.co.uk/aniracj/StrannyDayze/

memes121 said...

God bless you and your sister my friend.

psychfun said...

Just a thought....what happens to water when it boils away? :-) Peggy is still with you but just in another form! :-)

boombie02 said...

What a great analogy.

It's great to hear that peggy is doing fine and adjusting well.  That is great!

Love,
Mandy