I have not talked with Peggy for a few days. I left a phone message for her this morning.
I have missed hearing her voice so much that the silence is deafening.
There are many things that I miss about Peggy.
I miss her wonderful sense of humor, her intelligence, her spirit of fun. Most of all, I miss her compassion.
Watching Peggy disappear is also making me disappear in some ways. Her slow removal from my life is leaving a space in my heart that no one else can ever fill.
I wish that she knew this morning, how much I miss her and how much I love her. There is no way that I can let her know those things now and even though I say them to her.... she has forgotten how to process language. Her mind has forgotten how to speak and that is a great loss to the world around her.
My grief about Peggy sits on my shoulder's and goes with me everywhere. I think that I could have some closure if I could sit with her once more... before Alzheimer's took her mind away and tell her how much having her for a sister has meant to me.
I would certainly have the closure that I need if she could look at me with her bright green eyes and wonderful smile and tell me just once more............
That she loves me too.
I Love You Today, Peggy!