Thursday, November 13, 2008

Peggy Today

Peggy is still losing weight. She eats well, her husband says but is in constant motion.
She walks all over the nursing home every day and seems in a hurry. I wonder where she thinks she is going? I wonder if she ever thinks that she gets there?

To say that this disease is unfair is an understatement. How could a healthy, athletic, active person like P.J. develop this disease in her late 40's?

The saving grace for our family is that Peggy seems happy and smiles a lot.

Her husband has been a rock for Peggy and our family. When, on their wedding day he uttered the words; For better and worse, he could have never imagined what would happen in his marriage.
Peggy loved him so much and somewhere in her soul, she still does...even though she has forgotten who he is...

I will never stop missing my sister. The sister that I grew up with, shared my heart and secrets with, looked up to and admired.
She is still that person but her shell makes it harder and harder to remember. She is different from the person that I knew.

But.....

I am different too.

Our journey through life makes us all different in many ways.

I remember a time in my life when I knew all the answers, I even knew all the questions. I knew how to fix things in my life and in everyone else's life.
I was outspoken and sure of myself.
My journey thus far has tempered me and softened me.

I am blessed because I can remember. Peggy is blessed because she is happy and doesn't seem to mind that she can't remember.

The holiday's bring a flood of memories of Thanksgivings and Christmases
past. The holiday's bring excitement and thinking of the future.

Peggy has neither as the holidays approach.

But....
She is safe, happy and loved with or without her memories.

I will just have to remember for both of us.

I Love You Today, Peggy!
I miss you always!

Happy Thanksgiving 2008.

Mary Louise

4 comments:

Arlene (AJ) said...

Oh yes do remember for the both of you dear, memories thankfully are something no one can take from us.
May it comfort you to know your Sis is at peace in her heart and mind....it's hard for any family that has to deal with this disease...just remember Peggy would want you to remember her and all the special times you both shared with each other.

Carlene Noggle said...

I am so glad to have found you again. It is good that Peggy can still move around...at least it is exercise for her muscles... I am wondering if Peggy can still talk? I pray that God comforts you and Peggy in a special way today...You know, If Peggy knew what you have done, by keeping her close to you with this journal, by never giving up on her, she would be soooooo proud of you...I know I am.
love ya,
carlene

Jamie said...

I am new to your blog. I saw it on someone else's list of blogs that they follow.

I can identify with much of what you wrote. I pray that the Lord strengthens you on this journey. It is so very difficult and it does change us, but hopefully for the better in the long run...if for no other reason but to help us stop and appreciate each moment given to us.

Blessings to you.

Jamie

http://ldybutterfly1128.blogspot.com

REGINA said...

mary louise, i have followed your journal for some time. it truly touches me, even though i have no sisters, or brothers. i have awarded you the marie antoinette award, as you are a worthy recipient.

go to my blog for instructions on how to accept and pass it on.

blessings,

regina

http://apageunturned.blogspot.com/2008/12/marie-antoinette-award-recipients.html