Sunday, October 21, 2007


One of the most important things I have learned as I have watched my sister disappear........

When someone you love and have depended upon all of your life disappears,

you are forced to find yourself.

I have learned to find my own strength, my own own inter- voice, my own  inter- parent.

I didn't realize how much I depended on Peggy to tell me that everything would be Ok, everything would work out and that I would be OK.

I depended on her and she, on me.

Now, she doesn't need my guidance and I have been forced to find my own.

I have learned that I am stronger than I thought I was.

I miss her very much but I am learning to depend on....


Thank you, PJ!

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Mary Louise



tendernoggle said...

I feel the same way from losing my husband last Jan. of 2006...I also lost myself...and I have had to change ALOT. I am praying for you and your sisters.
love ya,

joan3424 said...

I am losing my dad more and more every day, it's getting more pronounced.  Yesterday, he couldn't find the coffee maker, which has been in the same place since they came out with coffeemakers.   I have no one else to lean on and I wish I was strong enough to lean on myself.  It's just us, and I hate that every day, I lose a little more of him -- and I know it's not coming back.
Joanie in Beavercreek

cmcob2 said...

share the love and happiness you feel with your loved one. not the void you see, it will bring you both joy ad fond memories.. especially toyour loved one.your love and compassion will pierce thru te void to the world they live in now.
                                                                         caregiver survivor

wendy4145 said...

No one better to depend on then you and God!

Even though she was majorly dependable when she could be.


loisontheweb said...

  I guess that you realize that your life is entering a new chapter.  You are honoring Peggy's life by being still devoted to her.  I e-mailed a link to a sister & a cousin who have people in their lives who are just beginning to become a bit vague.  YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION TO GOD ONLY KNOWS HOW MANY PEOPLE  DEPEND UPON YOU FOR THAT INSPIRATION!