Thursday, October 18, 2007


I see the world around me when I look out of my eyes but

I cannot see myself.

I can only see myself if I have the reflection of a mirror or something

else that projects my image back to me.

 My world can become small if I look out of my eyes and

 cannot process what I see.

I understand the world around me because my

brain sends a message to my eyes. I learned as I grew that a tree was a tree,

a car is a car, a house is a house.

What does Peggy see, now that her brain is not sending the correct messages to her eyes. Does she remember that a tree is a tree?

I wonder if her eyes recognize that she is Peggy when she sees her reflection in the mirror.

Does her plaque filled brain send the message to her eyes that a chair is a person or a person a chair?

Peggy whispers a lot and seems to talking in a language that only

she and the person that she is whispering with in her mind can understand.

I have many questions about this disease and its effects on the brain. At present, my questions have no answers.

As I continue to try and figure this out it occurs to me.....

It really doesn't matter what Peggy sees or who she is talking with in hushed whispers during her day.

What matters is that she doesn't feel afraid or lonely. She smiles a lot and is content and happy.

If content, cared for and happy is what she sees when she looks from her eyes....

I'm glad that she can still see.

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Mary Louise







pharmolo said...

Isn't it a good thing that Peggy is happy? It's a shame in a way, because the rest of you are not, over her state of health. Oblivion is bliss :-(

wendy4145 said...

I can tell what a wonderful person Peggy Is.  She's so pleasant when facing this type of disease.  

We will all see through the same eye together, one day.


ajquinn354 said...

Mary Louise, it's so hard on the other family members who love the one in their own world.  I've worked with many alzheimer people in the nursing facilities and must say the majority are always smiling and seem to be happy in their own world. Hope that brings some consolidation to you dear.   Arlene (AJ)

tendernoggle said...

I think she may be reverting back to her childhood and whispering secrets to you and her other sisters!
love ya,

cmcob2 said...

regression brings the innocence and happiness of  a child.perhaps it is an offset for the wickedness of the disease.