Thursday, October 12, 2006

FROZEN EYES

Peggy's eyes have told the story of her descent into Alzheimer's disease.

Before Alzheimer's disease entered her mind, her eyes were green and sparkled with light and laughter.

When she began to notice that something was wrong, her eyes grew serious as she submitted to test after test with no diagnosis.

Time passed and fear showed from the window of her soul. She knew something was wrong but did not know what was happening to her.

Then, I remember when her eyes began to show serious fear because she had started to forget major events and appointments.

We all do that kind of thing in our daily lives and it is perfectly normal. The difference with Peggy was that she didn't remember that she had forgotten.

The eyes can show a range of emotions.

The eyes reveal what Alzheimer's disease does to a mind. It blocks out the light of the brain and the eyes grow dark and blank.

Peggy's eyes are no longer green and there is no sparkle left in them.

Alzheimer's disease has frozen her brain and her eyes have turned cold. The stare from her eyes is....

Blank.

But I know that deep inside of her mind, there is still some of the Peggy that I knew......Still some of the light and laughter left somewhere deep inside of her.

Only..............

It is frozen and has no way to thaw and work its way to the windows of her soul.

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Mary Louise

6 comments:

salemslot9 said...

I'm a christian
so I believe that our Father
is looking after her

lsfp1960 said...

It's so sad, but I'm happy that you have so many beautiful memories of your sister, Peggy.  Linda in Washington state  

wendy4145 said...

I agree.  She's frozen by the disease, but she is still Peggy.  Either she is with God already or God is with her right now, But she is still Peggy, your forever freind.

Love,
Wendy

pharmolo said...

I was thinking of you when the news came through this week that Alzheimers medications would be disallowed in the UK. The downward spiral of your sister's decline continues to haunt...

daddyleer said...

Your entry struck a chord because my wife's memory loss symptoms from MS are so often captured in a confused look morphing to panic to a void when she realizes she's lost a memory of something being discussed.
Patrick

amyrangei said...

Wow, the difference is so noticable.  It is so sad to see someone you love change so much, I am praying for her.

Amy