Saturday, February 18, 2006


I believe in the sun even when it is not shining.

Sometimes, nighttime is the worse time. I was up very late last night.

I looked up and down our street and it was apparent that my lights were the only lights that were still on. I felt like I was the only person in the world who was still awake and needed light in the dark of night.

I wondered if this is what Peggy feels like every day and night of her life now.

I thought a lot about her last night as I peered into the dark black sky out of my front windows.

I believe in love even when I don't feel it.

Then, I saw an airplane on approach to the Air Force Base that is about 8 miles from our home. The lights of the plane cut through the night sky and the straight streaks of light would guide the plane to land. The lights on that plane had a definite purpose.

I believe that I have a purpose in life even when I am not sure what it is.

The plane was on approach to a run way that is lighted in the darkness so that the plane can land safely.

I can not control what happens in my life but I can control how I react to it.

I thought when I saw that plane,  I was not alone in the night like I had first thought. There are other people who are awake in the night like I was. Other people who have a purpose in the night.

So, though we may feel alone, we are never really alone.

Peggy is never alone and maybe, just maybe, she sees a light in her darkness too.

Maybe, just maybe she knows that she is not alone because there are others who share her darkness with her.

Darkness can be a scary place but it can also be a place where there are no distractions. No bright lights to keep us from thinking.

I miss the brightness of Peggy but....

I have learned so much from her darkness.

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Mary Louise




barbpinion said...

I believe in all these things too, hon. We have too, when life tosses us a curve ball. And someday, everything will be as GOD intended it to be.
Love you, praying for you always.

wendy4145 said...

true.  things we can't see or touch are still very there.  i believe there are bright spots in the mids of everyone's darkness.
i also believe none of us would go back to our younger days when we new so much less.

lauriew2005 said...

i will pray for all of you.  i think that is the worst disease anyone could get it must be horrible for the family and her.  her poor children it must be so hard for them that makes me so sad to think about.  lots of love and prayers for all of you.