PEGGY SAYING...GOODBYE
I was informed on September 30th by AOL
that they will be closing down their journal site.
Every one who has been writing journals on this
AOL site is very sad.
We have until October 31st to transfer all the
contents of our journals to another site or lose them.
My first entry about watching Peggy disappear was on October 30, 2003.
MY FIRST ENTRY.......
P. J. ( left) is dying from Alzheimer's Disease.
We were always very close.
It is so very hard to see her disappearing before my eyes.
I call her every morning and have since she was diagnosed 2 years ago.
She is slipping away fast and now calls me "Aunt Louise."
I struggle with losing her.
I miss her more than I can write.
Only people who have experienced this living death
can understand what I am feeling.
I am saying goodbye to her every day and
I always say before I hang up...I Love you, Today P. J
and she will say...I love you too but she can't remember my name.
I love you. I miss you today.
P J...My Sister...My Friend!
This was one of the first comments I received
and this comment helped me to keep writing and
to express my grief with words.
COMMENTS:
Did you ever hear that saying " I complained I had no shoes, until I met a man with no feet?" Sometimes my days seem so hard because I have a child with Tourettes Syndrome. Its not drastic or life threatening but it still drains my heart and soul. My heart goes out to you and your family. I have no shoes but you have no feet. I will say a prayer for your sister.
Louise,
Very touching commentary. I would not have recognized Peggy. But I have not seen her in decades I suppose.
this blog is a good idea.
thanks for sharing.
Mary Louise,
I know it must be very hard dealing with Alzheimer's and losing your baby sister. I know it would crush me if I lost my sister. You have been strong and brave to write the journal and share your experience with others.
I am proud of you. I am praying for you, PJ, her family and your other sisters.
God be with you all.
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These were the words from people who read that first entry and gave me the strength and courage to keep writing even though it was painful.
Writing this journal about Peggy has been life saving experience for me. Having so many people comment and send prayers has saved me in many ways.
To date....66,165 people have taken the time to write a comment or read this journal.
I will be forever grateful for the help and comfort this has provided.
I hope before the dead line of October 31st, I will have a new journal home and will give interested readers the address.
If I decide to stop writing about Watching.....I will say...
I THANK ALL OF YOU AND GOODBYE!
Goodbye from my sister....Peggy and from me.
I Love You Today, Peggy and always will remember our lives as sisters before Alzheimer's/Picks disease took you away from all who love you!
Mary Louise
LIFE IS GOOD.....
I MISS YOU TODAY, PEGGY AND I ALWAYS WILL!
Mary Louise
In all honesty, I had to find the courage within myself to get past the title of your journal before I could read it. My dad lost his youngest brother to this terrible disease it was devastating to say the least. The reason I needed courage to read your journal is because I watched my youngest sister disappear to cancer. We lost her 15 months ago, her funeral was on her 44th birthday. I hope you don't mind if I read your journal from the beginning and go forward to the present time because I feel that is the only way you get to know someone better. I do not have a journal but my daughter does and introduced me to journals after I lost my lil sis. I must say it has helped me through the grief one day at a time.
Debbie