Sunday, April 20, 2008

MEMORY AND THE HEART

Dear Peggy,

I am going into the hospital on Tuesday morning.  How I wish that

I could talk with you.

The sound of your voice and the way you reassured me in times of

uncertainty is something that cannot be replaced.

I will have a Cardiac catheterization. It is a test to see if my heart is functioning properly

and if all my arteries are open.  I am scared, Peggy.

Years ago, I could have called you and you would have come to be here with me.

I will miss having you here but I am thankful for my husband and family who

will be here.

I will miss knowing you are here. I will miss knowing that you care.

I will miss knowing that your prayers are mine but most of all..........

I miss knowing that you remember who I am.

I know that time, space, disease or anything can erase our sister-hood and the depth of care that we have always felt for one another.

Somewhere, inside of your mind is a little place that remembers...Mary Louise and how frightened she can get at times.

Somewhere inside of your mind is a small place that will be thinking of me on Tuesday morning. I just know it.................

In my heart!

 

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Mary Louise

21 comments:

pharmolo said...

Your sister will be thinking of you, in ways beyond any of us, Mary Louise. We are here also.

Guido
http://journals.aol.co.uk/pharmolo/call-for-support/

nightmaremom said...

sending good thoughts, hugs, and prayers.  I KNOW your sister thinks of you.....
d

mleppard06 said...

hi mary louise, i just dropped in to say i will be thinking of you on tuesday, i hope it all goes well. I am sure that there is a small place in your sister that will be too. take care mrs t xx
http://journals.aol.co.uk/mleppard06/eternity

dwhee70041 said...

Mary Louise,
Our prayers are with you.
David

wendy4145 said...

Yes!  Peggy's brain is not able to remember everything now, but her heart will never forget you.  I'm sure she can sense what you are going through and is right beside you in that way.  I pray for God's presence to be overwhelmingly with you and your family and friends.  I pray that this procedure prooves a good result and that you are feeling better soon.

Love,
Wendy

fasttrack58 said...

Special thoughts...
Linda...

joan3424 said...

Good luck on Tuesday, Sweetie, sending you good wishes and prayers,
Joan

frankandmary said...

We are all at the mercy of some forces beyond our control, but I don't think we can ever really KNOW what another does or does not know.  Recently, while my Dad was intubated, I was told he was on meds & that he would not remember any of it.  Yet the first thing he said once off the meds....was to repeat what I had been telling him all along....Maybe Peggy can remember, can understand some of this, but cannot express it. I think she will be with you tomorrow.  ~Mary

mosie1944 said...

There are lots of us who will pray for you and be thinking of you.  Saturday was the second anniversary of my husband's heart bypass surgery, and I consider it a privilege to keep you in my thoughts.

preciousone25 said...

My prayers are with you for comfort, and with Peggy also for comfort.

Joann

ajquinn354 said...

Mary Louise you are in my special thoughts dear.  You'll do fine with the heart catherization, I've had it done, so understand your concern, but know this is available to help you if you have any heart problem.  Peggy is with you always remember that, she can't say it, but the love you shared as Sisters  will never change that.  Let us know how you do?  Bless you. Arlene (AJ)

pamal3 said...

Hello Mary Louise. I was extremely touched whan I read your letter to your sister. I will have you and your sis In my thoughts and prayers. I hope everything goes okay for you at the hospital, Please try not to be scared. Peggy will be with you In spirit reassuring you. Love Pam xx
http://journals.aol.co.uk/pamal3/almost-40/

wumzels2 said...

may God not only grant you peace before the surgery, but guide the hands of your surgeon/doctor.  my thoughts and prayers are with you, mary louise.  your journal has been so dear to me, and i will miss you while you are recovering.  be blessed, dear one.

regina

richardson749 said...

Hope everything has gone well for you,thinking of you and sending love and prayers.Love Helen

barbpinion said...

Praying for you still, dear one.
Barb- http://journals.aol.com/barbpinion/HEYLETSTALK

sanforized6 said...

Just got "caught up" on your beautiful entries. You never fail to bring tears to my old eyes. You go get your "thing" done, and you get better. Peggy still needs you, and you've got an awfully large family out here in JLand that needs you too! rich

helmswondermom said...

Mary Louise, I hope everything went well with your surgery and that you'll soon be up and about.
Lori

kirkbyj05 said...

Your sister is with you always.  You carry her in your heart wherever you go.
You share her with all of your journal readers too.
My thoughts and prayers will be with you hoping that your operation is successful.
Please try to content yourself that you will be in good hands.
Praying for you and your sister.
Jeanie xxxx

pprrrr39 said...

I hope that everything went well with the surgery.

I know that your sister was there with you , guiding you through it all

hugs Jayne

ajquinn354 said...

Thinking about you dear and hope all went well with your surgery.  Hope we hear from you soon.  Take care. Arlene (AJ)

loisontheweb said...

As Peggy is in your heart ... so you are in the hearts of all of us who have shared your journal these past years.
LOIS