ALL CIRCUITS ARE BUSY

I tried to call Peggy today but got this message......

All circuits are busy

I will try again later today.

It is interesting that with all the phone lines and all the cell towers...all circuits would be busy.

That is what I think Peggy's brain must be like now. All the circuits are busy and I cannot get through to her.

You would think that I would be accustomed to the fact that Peggy has Alzheimer's Disease and she will never be the same again....

But I am not accustomed to that fact because all the circuits in my brain will not let that message get completely through on some days.

We can use our brains to block unwanted information at will.

This afternoon, I will believe that the lines to Peggy are temporarily down and the circuits will be restored.

I can play that game today until reality restores the circuits in my brain and I accept the fact that Peggy brain circuits will never be restored while she is on this earth.

It is interesting how I balance the difficult places in my life. 

Sometimes, it is OK to pretend that everything is all right  because it makes it easier to navigate through the day.

Today, even though all the circuits are busy, all is right in my world because I said a prayer that the circuits will be repaired....

 If only for a moment.

 

What shall I give to my sister?

Laughter to sustain when sorrow may bring pain.

A bright song of life.

A belief that Winter ends in the glory of Spring.

A prayer of hope for a peace that will forever stay.

( Lea Palmer )

Let him have all your worries and cares, for he is always thinking about you and watching everything that concerns you.

1st Peter  5:7

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Mary Louise

THE NEW YEAR 2006

WISDOM FOR JANUARY 3RD, 2006

 

Love doesn't try to see through others but............

to see others through. (Author unknown)

I Love You Today, Peggy and I promise to see you through 2006. Everyone who loves you will be there for you in every way that we can.

This is a promise for 2006!

Love, Your Husband and your Daughters.

Love, your Sister's and your Brother.

Love, your Niece's and your Nephew's.

Love and prayers from all the people who know you and have gotten to know you through this journal.

I Love you so much Peggy and I will never stop missing you in my life.

I want to thank you for teaching me that I can live my life, be productive and survive without you standing on the sidelines cheering for me.

You taught me so much in 2005 about strength and determination of the spirit.

I look into 2006 and wait for that second when you will say...Hi Mary Louise and know who I am.

If that never happens again, Peggy, I will remember all the times in my life when you did say my name and knew who I was.

We will always be sisters.....Forever friends because I will remember for both of us.

Happy 2006, Peggy!

I Love You Today!

Mary Louise

FROM A FRIEND...THANKS, LIBBY!

SISTERS

A friend sent this to me.  I send it to you just as she sent it to me....Libby.

To my sisters, who are always such great cheerleaders. Thank you.

A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day, drinking iced tea and
visiting with her Mother.  As they talked about life, about marriage, about
the responsibilities of life and the obligations of adulthood, the mother
clinked the ice cubes in her glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober
glance upon her daughter.

"Don't forget your Sisters," she advised, swirling the tea leaves to the
bottom of her glass.  "They'll be more important as you get older.  No
matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love the
children you may have, you are still going to need Sisters.

Remember to go places with them now and then; do things with them.

"Remember that 'Sisters' means ALL the women... your girlfriends, your
daughters, and all your other women relatives too.

"You'll need other women. Women always do."

'What a funny piece of advice!'  the young woman thought.  'Haven't I just
gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world?   I'm now a married
woman, for goodness sake! A grownup! Surely my husband and the family we may
start will be all I need to make my life worthwhile!'

But she listened to her Mother.  She kept contact with her Sisters and made
more women friends each year.  As the years tumbled
by, one after another, she gradually came to understand that her
Mom really knew what she was talking about. As time and nature work their
changes and their mysteries upon a woman, Sisters are
the main stays of her life.

After more than 50 years of living in this world, here is what I've
learned:



       THIS SAYS IT ALL:


       Time passes.

       Life happens.

       Distance separates.

       Children grow up.

       Jobs come and go.

       Love waxes and wanes.

       Men don't do what they're supposed to do.

       Hearts break.

       Parents die.

       Colleagues forget favors.

       Careers end.

       BUT.........
 
Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are
between you.  A girl friend is never farther away than needing her
can reach.

When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you have
to walk it by yourself, the women in your life will be on the valley's
rim,  cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your
behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end.

Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you.
...Or come in and carry you out.
Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters, daughters-in-law, sisters,
sisters-in-law, Mothers, Grandmothers, aunties, nieces,
cousins, and extended family, all bless our life!
The world wouldn't be the same without women, and neither would I.
When we began this adventure called womanhood, we had no
idea of the incredible joys or sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how
much we would need each other.

Every day, we need each other still.

I Love You Today, Peggy!

I Love all of My Sisters out there....... who have supported me in my effort to write about .....

Watching My Sister...Disappear.

Thank You each and every one.

Thank You to all of my Brothers out there.... for the kind words and the support that I have felt from you!

Thank you for walking with me on this journey.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006!

Mary Louise

HAPPY NEW YEAR

I watched the ball drop...

I saw Dick Clark and the progress he has made.

I missed talking to Peggy tonight but talked to others who are important in my life.

This will be a good...New Year!

I have much to be thankful for tonight because......

I remember..

I Love You Tonight, Peggy!

I Miss You!

Happy New Year.

Mary Louise

THE NEW YEAR AND PEGGY'S LOCKET

It is hard to believe that 2005 is ending and 2006 will be beginning.

The year past has brought more changes in my relationship with Peggy.

It is more difficult to get a response from her. She speaks softly and it is difficult to hear what she is trying to say. She hangs up the phone when I am trying to talk with her. But she can still laugh!

I sent her a gold locket for her Christmas present.

I put a picture of us inside of it and her husband said that she is wearing it.

I wonder if she will ever open it to see us in happier times.

I wonder if she will know who is in the picture smiling back at her from the locket around her neck?

Our hearts are forever entwined...

In my mind and around her neck in a heart locket with a picture of us...

Just for Peggy.

I will miss sharing 2006 with Peggy but I am so glad that we had other New Years Eve celebrations together even though we were miles apart.

I will miss your phone call again this year when the clock strikes 12:00 am, Peggy.

I will miss hearing you shout.....

Happy New Year, Mary Louise!!!!

So, Happy New Year, Peggy, Just a little early!

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Mary Louise

 

CHRISTMAS DAY PHONE CALL

I talked to Peggy yesterday, Christmas Day.

When she first came on the phone I said, Hi, This is Mary Louise.

She said, OK in a small voice.

I said, Merry Christmas, Peggy!

She didn't say anything and there was silence. I asked her if she wanted to talk to me. ( Big mistake, Ha).

She said No...... and hung up!

I had to laugh at her honesty. The honesty of a child.

Her husband called me back and said, let's try this again.

Peggy took the phone and I said, Peggy, you hung up on me! You could have hurt my feelings, you know!  She found that amusing and she started to laugh.

We laughed through the rest of the call over nothing.

What a beautiful Christmas gift.

The gift of laughter from my sister, Peggy!

Judy Meggers wrote............

My sister's love is very special.

One I'll treasure through the years.

We've played and laughed together and of times shed many tears.

But through life's maze of problems,

God placed a bond of love within

To unite our hearts in wisdom

Changing sisters into friends!

I Love You Today, Peggy!

Merry Christmas 2005.

Mary Louise

CHRISTMAS EVE 2005

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAY'S FROM PEGGY AND MARY LOUISE!